I feel like I should give up the internet and friends forever. All I ever feel is annoyed around them.
So many times I wish that people would just stop being idiots. I wish people were trustworthy and that I could talk freely about things with them. Don't get me wrong, I do have people like that in my life, but clearly not enough.
I don't get why people keep popping into my life when I don't want them to. Especially him. No one even knows how I feel when he talks to me. It's like my whole world flips around. But not in the good way. More of in the 'now I want to stab everyone that I come into contact with' way. Yeah, intense, I know.
I also don't get why people can't be honest with me. I mean, really? I'm an adult and so are you. Act like one, please. Don't tell me that everything is okay between us, then never talk to me again. Clearly, that was a lie. And that pisses me off. Instead of talking to me, you just ignore me. Yeah, that's even better.
Another thing I hate is people. Just plain and simple. All people. Everywhere.
I hate people who are insensitive to what I'm feeling or people who think I don't know what pain feels like. I hate people who claim to miss me or love me, then abuse me. I'm not that stupid anymore. I hate people who aren't mature enough to be honest with me. (Yeah, I realize this post is slightly immature. Bite me.) I hate it when people are childish. I hate people who don't listen to me. Just because I don't talk about my feelings a lot doesn't mean that when I finally do, I don't want you to listen. I hate selfish people. I hate people who aren't there for me when I'm always there for them.
The only people I like to talk to now are strangers. People who don't know my name or anything about me. They are the best, because they can't betray my trust to anyone I know.
I want to leave this place, leave my internet behind, and go somewhere where no one knows me.
Now I'm also annoyed that this stupid blog won't post in the stupid color I want it to.
